So...I take that back...

A few posts ago I mentioned someone named Sarah. She's erased from the records again...because apparently no matter what, she's never going to be upfront with me. EVER. Never has been for that matter. Don't know what I was thinking...should have never got up and walked across the cafeteria. I shoulda knowed. But then again when you're 13 who does know?

So it's Wednesday night which means I've got the pager. Lots of fun there. I expected Kristie to come and hang out this afternoon. "She never came. She never even called." -Cake

It took me half an hour to thoroughly walk this entire building. I could have not done it and it would have been the same result. I didn't find anything wrong. No one was misbehaving, NOTHING. I'm so bored.

I need to get out of this place.

Sidenotes:
1. "I've been through the desert on a horse with no name it felt good to be out of the rain"
2. Aquaman
3. I wish I spoke another language.
4. Two down, the rest of my life to go.
5. I can't believe she just didn't show up.
6. Didn't call or anything.
7. Depressing facebook messages.
8. Why the hell would I be blocked on AIM? I didn't do anything to deserve that.
9. Sick of this stupid internet cutting in and out.
10. EFF YOU if you disagree with me.
11. Don't Fear the Reaper
12. Come 9:30, I'm doing round 2 and then I'm hitting the sack. There's no reason to be awake. I'm not missing anything.
13. Canoeing this saturday.
14. I feel like I'm stuck in a timewarp listing to BTO "you ain't seen nothing yet"
15. "she looked at me with big brown eyes and said 'you ain't seen nothin yet'"
16. I wrote a song all about her.
17. I'll never play it for anyone.
18. Christopher Walken is your father...and also the Continental.
19. If I were a high ranking military official I wouldn't want to be a General (I think it's funny that the highest ranked are called "general" as in average).
20. When I see a kitten my first instinct is to stomp. Joy Griffith can deal with that.
21. "A long long time ago I can still remember how that music used to make me smile..."
22. I want to change my facebook pic to a picture of me flipping everyone off.
23. FED UP.
24. 10 miles.
25. why not start smoking? What's there to lose?
26. "I'm only a man looking for a dream"
27. Someone save me.
28. I'm tired of going to others...someone come to me.
29. "There's only so much I can give without return."
30. SHUT THE F*** UP.

GAH!

What a crazy weekend

Friday night Nick and Kelsey kidnapped me and made me go to the hockey game with them and Kelly. It was pretty cool. They busted out the glass at the end of the rink I was sitting on twice. The Pikes threw a fish on the ice. I got to sit by Christine "Baby SHAKER" Sargent...I even got to see Amanda Parkinson...and to TOP IT OFF...UAH won 5-0. After the game we all ate at the Olive Garden. I had the never ending pasta bowl. Spaghetti and meatballs...it was yummy. Shot of Jack was good too...yup. Went and saw Laura, talked until two...went back to le Deux.

Saturday morning I got up and went to Decatur. Since it was close to lunchtime...like 10:50. I stopped at McDonalds and ordered lunch. "Sir are you ordering breakfast or lunch?" andI say "lunch" and they say, "we serve breakfast till 11 on weekends." MY RESPONSE: "WTF? I guess I'll see y'all later then." I went to Krystals for lunch. Pulled up to Brad's about the time of kickoff, but before I can get to the door these two pugs start barking and running at me. I just stood there. Stupid pugs. "China" and "Buddah" are their names. I went inside. Brad and his friends were already drinking. So I drank from noon till about 6...just steady buzzin. Somewhere in there Mallorie called me...and it was great. Then I sobered up and drove back to Huntsville. The lovely Alison Wolfsberger picked me up and took me to the Hockey game. It was a lot of fun and UAH won...again. On the way back, Ben Thomasin gave me a ride. We went to Wendy's and Britney and Brock were behind us. I jumped out of the car and acted like I was slinking toward them. They just thought I was weird. Ben and I drove back to the building to hang out with AJ afterward...but before we got there we helped a poor girl change her flat tire.

Sunday I slept in till 1. Then went to Beauregard's for my sunday afternoon lunch. It is ritual to do so now. Then I proceeded to watch television all the rest of the day. It was great. A weekend with absolutely no schoolwork whatsoever.

Sidenotes:

1. Ben Folds on NOV. 13th!
2. Ben "Tire Changin" Thomason
3. Aquaman on Smallville this week.
4. James Edward Guthrie has a blackberry...so stop spaming him.
5. Hot Jack Daniels at Olive Garden.
6. "We're gonna run it up the gut and kick" -Brad Wilson
7. USC vs. Notredame...what a bust.
8. "The battle is won with all these things that I've done."
9. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICK "ALFRED" HENSLEY
10. Kurt goes crazy and loses his voice...after 10 minutes of continuous shouting at referees.
11. Motts Pennies
12. "I used to date a guy named Cliff Logue" -Lindsay talking to Malissa about Malissa's boyfriend.
13. You know what they say in Starkville about Ole Miss? "FUCK OLE MISS"
14. Tide rolls at 11.
15. I got the fish on me.
16. "we talked until two and then she said it's time for bed"
17. "I'm trying to wreck and hear the auburn game." Alison as she messes with the radio while driving us blindly down University.
18. "Pull your head out." -Kurt
19. Football in the middle of the street during half-time of the USC/Notredame game...it's kinda difficult to throw the football left handed...add to it that I was slightly inebriated...anyway I hope the neighbors weren't pissed that I hit their mailbox.
20. There's just something about you LLC...can't quite put my finger on it...don't question it, just know it's really real.
21. Watched "Meet Joe Black"
22. Joe Ybarra...loss for words.
23. Jared, bring your blog back!
24. Nick, I'm taking the Bessima for mine own. DEAL.
25. Albert Einstein action figure.
26. BEEBO. I will not be a victim.
27. Cody Buntain had a shocker foam hand.
28. Christine Sargent likes the shocker.
29. Telephones work both ways.



Well I don't know why I came here tonight
I got the feelin that somethin ain't right
I'm so scared that I'll fall out my chair
And I'm wonderin how I'll get down those stairs
Clowns to the left of me jokers to the right
Here I am stuck in the middle with you

No Title

and it's a shame...I hope you can find it. I hope it can be real for you. It's not supposed to be complicated and never would have been. I love you. And here I go with my part. My pathetic whining part. And we get back in the car and leave. We drive to wherever silent. You are all I've wanted since the moment I felt your hands. Someday I hope you realize the same. And that's what I wanted to talk about. That why I wanted to see you imediately wherever you were last friday because I had a stirring in me to just look at you and tell you...and now I'm shutting up but not before I say it again. I love you.

ok, more on the day

So I got rid of my Fender guitar today. I got an Alvarez Cutaway acoustic/electric RD20SC...oh yeah...I'm really excited about it because it's a much better guitar. I will be playing many hours and much more than I used to play on that cwappy FENDER. Yeah, it sucks...the Fender sucks.

I love the Fret Shop.

I had to keep my Fender case though, and that's ok...cause it works...just like any other case.

Nick and Kelsey came to eat lunch with me. They had quiznos...I had PB&J...and some chips. We were also joined by Kristie Long...and it was nice to meet her. Perhaps meeting her again is in order...who knows?

Anyway, life keeps living. Hope everyone's had a great day.

Yup

So, once again, working the desk with a little time on my hands. I've sorted the mail and done all that cool stuff...ya know...but now I'm bored...well, not bored. But I don't have anything to do. Well, I have this reaction paper I'm supposed to write but I don't think I want to start it at the desk because well, the desk has a way of being distracting. I got an awesome email from Amy yesterday and that made me happy. I'm ok with it all now...well, I was okay before, but I was still sad about it. I'm not at the moment...and these are good things.

I'm looking forward to staff meeting this evening. Asa is going to order us pizza.

I've had an interesting day...more to come later...I've just been given an assignment.

I need a shower

This morning I got up and drove to the Boro for a dentist appointment. I got a cavity filled without the anesthetic...pain ain't no thing. I said to the doc, "Give it to me straight. I need a reality check." I do not regret it at all. Sometimes I like to push it...today I did. And I feel better for it.

ToMader- I want you to hit me as hard as you can.

working the desk...the internet has been a pain in the ass today. It's fall break and everyone is gone. I believe Alfred and Bessima are also gone to Atlanta...SUCKlanta. Yeah I said it. I rate it as one of the most non-matt accepted places on the non-matt accepted list. But I digress...call me 'Duke'

It's gloomy outside.

I've taken to playing harmonica and guitar at the same time. It makes me feel special...but I need some harmonicas in different keys. I'm so sick of playing in C. I mean I feel like I could just explode with all this new sound if I had the means to do so. I just need some more Hamonicas.

I wonder what Jared is doing. I really do. Jared George Dovers...where is your blog? It has disappeared.

Eh...I went and saw Juanita today. That was a lot of fun. Everybody loves Mama Juan.

Mallorie is in town...but I ain't seen hide nor hair of her yet...probably won't...


THE SHIT HAS HIT THE FAN.

Ali W....yup.

Sidenotes...yes, I believe it's time.

Sidenotes:
1. I went 95 past a state trooper today...i have no ticket to show for it.
2. I was however incarcerated.
3. And if I ever see her again I feel it will be too soon.
4. Rock Me like a south bound train...HEY...
5. UAH Football- STILL UNDEFEATED
6. You give to me phone rectify situation.
7. "You're gonna make me give myself a good talkin to." -B. Dylan
8. Joe Ybarra where have you gone?
9. CALL ME AL- PAUL SIMON
10. This poking is a little out of control.
11. Thirty more minutes of not checkin IDs...then it's on...and I'm gonna bust some ass.
12. Nick Hensley eats beeb...I saw him in a corner with a spoon and a can of sardines.
13. "We got 200 dollars we wanna rock all night!" -The Boss
14. The Depression that only Fall can bring
15. Take it back.
16. Canoe trip on the 22nd...can't wait.
17. Thiago is spelled T-H-I-A-G-O, not Thaigo...like some info sheets around campus would have you believe.
18. Watched "The Longest Yard" with Ben Thomason
19. Albino said you can deal.
20. Mader claims no relation to the Brawny Paper Towel man, or MR. CLEAN...however Mr. T is his hero...and he DO...pity the fool.

Yes there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
There's still time to change
The road you're on

October weddings are draggin me down

And I hardly have anything to say

So I'm working the front desk and I'm wishing I wasn't here...how many posts do I start with that line? I don't know...probably a lot. I'm going to probably go into a random stream of consciousness on this one...it's going to get a little crazy, so read at your own risk.

In some small way I have found my way back to Sarah...and it is good. It feels like I haven't talked to her in forever but that when I do, we don't skip a beat and it's as if we never stopped talking...I think...I could be wrong on that one. There's just some people you know, and if you haven't talked to them in a while...you still know them. I'm happy about it.

I had a date last night with a very nice young woman. She kept me entertained and I had a lot of fun. I had a steak for dinner and then we went and played putt-putt. After a thrilling round of not keeping score (I did get one hole in one)--we came back to the building. I was sad that it ended so soon but she had to pick her friend up from work at 9:45. Oh well, I had a lot of fun and I think she did too. Perhaps a second date is in order? I dunno though, I had a lot of trouble getting her to go on this one...maybe now that she's seen the awesomeness of me she won't hesitate to go on a second one...or maybe it'll be the other way around. I was so lame she can't wait to get away from me...one never knows.

I'm having a problem though, I keep thinking about this other girl. I don't know if she's interested in me at all but I think she's amazing, and I wouldn't mind giving it a shot. But I can see that it could/might get to be a larger committment. I am not afraid of that, I never have been. There are some things that just seem right...and one does know about that.

Anyway, uh....last night Alfred, Bessima, and I went to Sonic. I used the last of my sonic card that Mallorie gave me. I'm kinda sad about her coming to Huntsville and not at least callin me and sayin hey. Yeah, that makes me a little sad. I don't know if I made her uncomfortable or what...I just don't know...But she could have at least called. I guess maybe we're not as good of friends as I thought. And that breaks my heart...no really, it does...seriously. I cried about it last night.

Sidenotes?
YES...DO IT.

1. Fire Alarm just went off.
2. Amanda Parkinson....whoah.
3. Ali W. (that was for you Alfred)
4. Oh the wonderment of a chocolate shake.
5. Train conversations are passing me by and I ain't got nothing to say.
6. "And so she walked out of our lives forever." -Doc Holiday
7. 7oz Steak sure ain't very filling.
8. I got a hole in one...I wasn't even trying.
9. Leslie Gray phone call till 3AM...gosh I was tired.
10. Mallorie...I'm disappointed.
11. Brandon Mader fears a tennis ball in the hand of Hew Tyler.
12. Thiago Carvalho is a man of few words...he lets his stern jawline do the talking.
13. his jawline says "you shoulda knowed"
14. Ali W.???
15. Adam Wilson is not the Pope.
16. Aquaman.
17. Brandon York is the XC bandit.
18. Wish I coulda gone to Tuscaloosa this weekend.
19. Ali W. wanted me to go to Auburn with her...it was so tempting.
20. Jeep is coming out with new vehicles. I like the Patriot.
21. I'm sick as hell of getting up to open the front door. I'm propping it.
22. 9 more minutes at the desk.
23. I pass.
24. I am definitely sad that Prothro broke his leg.
25. Brad Wilson is now a lawyer.
26. I'm going to get a Honda Rebel. DEAL.
27. Here's my vow to you I'll stay away.
28. October Wedding it's got me down.
29. Kelsey England rocks like a boat on a stormy sea.
30. Joe Ybarra is the man of the hour.

I'm writing a song all about you
A true song as real as my tears
But you've no need to fear it
Cause no one will hear it
Sad songs and waltzes
Aren't selling this year

I'll tell all about how you cheated
I'd like for the whole world to hear
I'd like to get even with you
Cause you're leaving
But sad songs and waltzes
Aren't selling this year