Settling in to Old Age and Solitude

This is my new task. I've decided I'm not destined to be with anyone. Ever. I officially give up.

Some Side-notes:
1. "Oh really? Did you diddle her in the a? I bet you did diddle her in the a. Didn't you."
2. Your poop brown eyes give me the diarrhea.
3. Don't fucking look at me like that. I'll throw a spear at you like you're a fucking gazelle or something.
4. Right now I'm looking at flowers that some douche bag sent her. Sad thing is that this douche bag is anonymous and probably has a better chance than I do.
5. "You better watch out because I'm gonna say FUCK."
6. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKING FUCK. FUCK.
7. And in case you didn't get the emphasis before....fuck.
8. It turns out that no matter what anyone ever says it can be trumped by one word. A simple four letter word. I'm not talking about "love" people.
9. I want a cherry coke. I want a shot of whiskey. What about that?
10. Somebody set us up the bomb.
11. This ends at 11.

How awesome? WICKED AWESOME.

I was in Alabama for about three days. Much fun. I missed a "clubbing" trip to Little Rock with my gang (and I don't mean baby seals kiddies). I can say I had more rewarding time with the family than I probably would have had at the club. My father bought a 42" HiDef TV and a Wii. I know...right? Tommy the Enforcer bought a Wii? What's that all about? I dunno, but it was a good decision. I'm going to side notes the trip.

Sidenotes:
1. 2-0, let's see how long that really lasts.
2. I left Russellville, AR at 8:30PM on Thursday evening to drive 454 miles EAST. I arrived at 4AM, and was asleep by 4:05AM. Guess what time I got up? 7:45AM! Who can waste a day in God's country? "NOT I," said the sly red fox.
3. Spent a day in Huntsville visiting peeps. Sadly, I didn't have enough time in the day to let EVERYONE know that I was coming to Alabama. If I didn't visit you, I promise I'll get you next time around.
4. There ain't no party like a pajama wii party...HEY....HO.
5. If I'm here, and you're there, then who's on second?
6. My older brother gave me this Brandi Carlile cd "The Story"---it's pretty damn awesome. I recommend finding it.
7. Melanie: "Matt when are you coming back?"
Me: "I'm not coming back, Chief."
8. New surround sound for the dvd entertainment in my apartment.
9. Brian gave me ten bucks. How about that? Thanks Brian.
10. Mom made a cookie cake. It was a little well done.
11. That girl found out that song was about her and she hasn't even heard it yet. It's killing me. Gah I feel so awkward when people figure out/find out.
12. The nephew is growing like a weed in summer...runnin' around drooling and stuff.
13. Joe Watkins took a bullet for me. Bless you sir.
14. All in all a good birthday.
15. Shout outs to: Alfred, Bessima and the wee tyke AlBessifred. Andrew Hodges kickin it on the Southside. You gotta know when to hold them fool.

*pours one on the ground for his homies*

The Heart

Some song lyrics I wrote last Saturday...well, it started out as a poem and I just couldn't resist...

If I told her in moments
That words do not describe
Would she take well my compliments?
Or think them as some sort of bribe
See she keeps me spinning
Even though I'm not moving
And I do not get dizzy
In a way it is soothing
And I daydream of futures
Forevers in instants
And then just as suddenly
I seem to forget them
And maybe it is sanity
Convincing subconscious
To reach for some ink
Just to write down all of this
But I think it's a blessing
Or maybe a curse
That the heart knows what it wants
And could not want it worse